She, naughty but nice? I, busy but happy! Uncertainties?

Looking at this picture, I wish I could be her, or perhaps him. But it does not matter. Something really matters to me is about aging...Not the view how I look at myself, however, how others look at me in fact...It is no use denying the fact that we all repy on opportunities somehow from time to time. The achievements we have got in our lives not all be fulfiled by our own efforts, though at least chances were given to us sometimes by others. I am telling the truth we all should know. In somehow, it is bit bitter-sweet as we experience, the fact is, even trying hard, it doesn't have to get a good outcome as we expect.

There is one week semester break; however, I have no break!
Heaps of assignments and projects come to visit me one after one...exhausting and lengthy; and that never comes to their end.
I have finished two of them this week so far and there are still two coming in a week, and another one in two weeks before the final exams. The study plan has been ruined in some way...except squeezing some spare time myself in early morning for a review of the old stuff, ha-ha but not much I have done in fact!

The exams started to worry me somehow and what I should do for my sake. Just come to my reality is that something has been bothering a lot lately. I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR SOMEWHERE ABLE TO OFFER ME A POSITION OF PRE-REGISTRATION PHARMACIST FOR NEXT YEAR. I have sent more than forty job applications through job vacancy shown on the notice board. All were unsuccessful as far as I have known...even they would never think of offering me a job interview. They haven't seen me, and certainly things provided that I will be one of the students graduating at the end of the year apart from the differences between me and my classmates. That is, my overseas status and working experiences that let the cat out of the bag, my age has become somewhat of obstacle and difficulty to my job possibility. How they could judge who suits the post with no interviews offered? The resume needs to be modified and changed in some way, especially the stuff like working experiences in advertising which revealed my age. I do not need to mention about this, no advantages that I could find if applied to pharmacy. That is terrible and devastating! I remember some phone interviews in which they did ask about my age and end up, no positive response would be given.

Racism and ageism?!