She, naughty but nice? I, busy but happy! Uncertainties?

Looking at this picture, I wish I could be her, or perhaps him. But it does not matter. Something really matters to me is about aging...Not the view how I look at myself, however, how others look at me in fact...It is no use denying the fact that we all repy on opportunities somehow from time to time. The achievements we have got in our lives not all be fulfiled by our own efforts, though at least chances were given to us sometimes by others. I am telling the truth we all should know. In somehow, it is bit bitter-sweet as we experience, the fact is, even trying hard, it doesn't have to get a good outcome as we expect.

There is one week semester break; however, I have no break!
Heaps of assignments and projects come to visit me one after one...exhausting and lengthy; and that never comes to their end.
I have finished two of them this week so far and there are still two coming in a week, and another one in two weeks before the final exams. The study plan has been ruined in some way...except squeezing some spare time myself in early morning for a review of the old stuff, ha-ha but not much I have done in fact!

The exams started to worry me somehow and what I should do for my sake. Just come to my reality is that something has been bothering a lot lately. I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR SOMEWHERE ABLE TO OFFER ME A POSITION OF PRE-REGISTRATION PHARMACIST FOR NEXT YEAR. I have sent more than forty job applications through job vacancy shown on the notice board. All were unsuccessful as far as I have known...even they would never think of offering me a job interview. They haven't seen me, and certainly things provided that I will be one of the students graduating at the end of the year apart from the differences between me and my classmates. That is, my overseas status and working experiences that let the cat out of the bag, my age has become somewhat of obstacle and difficulty to my job possibility. How they could judge who suits the post with no interviews offered? The resume needs to be modified and changed in some way, especially the stuff like working experiences in advertising which revealed my age. I do not need to mention about this, no advantages that I could find if applied to pharmacy. That is terrible and devastating! I remember some phone interviews in which they did ask about my age and end up, no positive response would be given.

Racism and ageism?!

Something reminded me today,...a piece of news of death!!

I remember one unexpected medical event I encountered was in Winton Hospital, located in central of Queensland where there was only a doctor in town. I met a nurse there and every now and then was able to have chats with her during her night-shifts. One night she was on night duty, a patient in the hospital died because of the delay of the management by the doctor. He was off and asked the nurse to give some medicine to calm the patient on the phone as the patient showed agitated further with time.

At that time, I was there and understood that the condition of the patient became severe. I hated myself at the time since not being able to offer any help. The early morning the doctor came, and was not sure of the patient’s condition and the underlying cause of his symptoms, and hence the patient was further given more medicines for his agitation and agressiveness. The patient died as a result. In fact, someone might be sued later on during the lengthy internal meetings at the hospital. There was nothing wrong with the nurse on duty that night. She exactly did what be told and however, she had been upset and kind of blamed herself. Over time, somehow I had become her counselor since the day I was at the ward with her to know what happened and experienced that fatal event during my life for the first time.

In the back of my mind, understand that be a strong, educated and knowledgeable person to help people may not be easy, particularly with passion and enthusiasm for others; the path where I am approaching should be the way for me to work with someone in needs, for the least effort that I am able to put in, hoping that we are all able to have a good health and prospect for our future. Since health is a fundamental and basic we need to gain, and then further to look for others, other desires that people have much for in their lives...like Disneyland! We all dearm of being part of it one day, with flying colours.

QUM presentation today

I just finished my QUM (Quality Use of Medicines) presentation. The project was about the patient's concerns and success on the methadone and buprenorphine programs in Caboolture...It didn't take long, and of course, I was nervous...that was a kind of relief, no matter what the result would be. "You will be fine and no need to worry about! It was rather good, in fact." Ian whispered to me as I got back to my seat in the tutorial room. 'Deep breaths and smiles' that is what I could do...Everything's gone, so just let it be...I suppose that things will turn out fine.

We do the first, and the rest someone will take care of...This kind of thought I always have. "Do you remember how many words we need to write for NHPA (National Health Priority Areas), Nelson?" I queried, he looked odd and said nothing. Does he still remember there are NHPA, MPE (Multiple Professional Education), drug delivery and TGA modules that need to be finished in three weeks or so?...His indifference often drives me crazy, a guy like him and I just wonder how he can manage his studies. Oh! Sorry, I shouldn't scold and complain of the one who is always slack. That is him; friends can either be accepted, or refused, but not criticized and complained at all. What are friends for and about? I should appreciate for what I have encountered in the life, no matter what! good or bad,...that is life, up and down, come and go, working as a cycle, a 'merry-go-round' We all once liked to play with when young. Having grown up a little, I forgot! That is home, though. I'd better apply this attitude to everything approaching me, with smiles and peace and then to love. He has been upset about his results last semester; however, I kicked him and left...Linda followed and was walking behind me...I woke up and then school began! But look at him....wooooo,..............school began, and then he got up but still in sleep!!
Interesting....