Return to earth!

The ice melting returns to water, I return to earth...

I crossed over the ice on the footpath; The ice fled from the bag which someone broke accidentally a few minutes ago. I was gonna do the shopping right after work.

The weather is dry and hot,...though it seems better recently. Looking at the melting ice, it gave me kind of the impression of being in the heat! The fact is that something was over, after all, the silly thoughts once remained, I remember; as the period of time I stayed at Winton last year, to do my four-week placement. From Mt Isa to Winton, it took eight hours or so to get there by coach since I was assigned to work in Winton, the very only community pharmacy there.

This is what I said in the reflective daily log book last year:

It is at seven mins past five...Since being in the sun over the last three days, I have got kind of suntan; while in the sun, my skin became more sensitive than before...a sensation of heat...heat......heat.

Maybe I’m just not suited to remote work. I’m not social self-sufficient and do need my friends and family somehow. I can’t pick myself up and move my life in an instant without pining for something intangible that I’m not really even sure of. There is a bit of a rollercoaster that goes on in the pit of my stomach when faced with social isolation. It comes in overwhelming waves of loneliness that are always a little unexpected and appear just when I am walking along the long roads with no ends. Indeed I only have myself to rely on the next step is to pick myself but back up, brush off the sand and dust, and thus carry on until next time.

And that’s about how it goes. In the central of Queensland on a 43 degree celsius day when sleep doesn’t come easily, the air-conditioning doesn’t work well!:( and few shops in town only, funny thing is that they close before five, none opens on weekends but the supermarket on Saturday morning. The pharmacy close (as the time I finish my work) and they close...
I need food, oh! come on...need to ask a favour of the hospital kitchen to spare me some food, or I am dying, otherwise.

Now I need to get used to this similar environment; fortunately, the weather is getting cool now and besides, most importantly, my colleagues themselves are helpful, for at least I have bad chances to do works properly. Professional standards somehow is to emerge in relation to the development of both working protocols and enthusiasm for works; responsible for me, and responsible for others.

On the path?! I am, and I will be!
That is a promise, not for someone else,.. but myself.:)

The fact inside me!

I quit and I felt dull...
Not in the mood, I did not want to bother anyone, so not having any written for a while.

One day you find no messages.
I am in the moments that make me sad, perhaps!

A month later, I got a new offer. Working far away from Brisbane at Mt Isa Hospital I did not expect, but now there I am. It could be a new challenge and some kind of learning process I have never, ever dealt with, starting everything from the very beginning, including their ways to manage, the protocols I need to follow in the pharmacy and the assignments I left off in Brisbane that need to be caught up, then! In somehow, I have been in a state of confusion, sort of a state of pressure unexpectedly haunting me 24 hours a day, seven days a week; they will never stop, and they will never rest...

Any news, any good that just exists, in its own ways to show me the path I reckon, to guide me where I could be, indeed! The darkness was over as I turned the corner, doing something again and again. I would take a rest as being tired of it sometimes, and morn often, I was lost! All of which have not had enough clues to give me ideas of what is going on, especially something invisible but I cannot ignore its existence. I have to be patient! Patience is a kind of high merit. Just acting as a kind of person who has been taking things seriously, and seeing things not for granted. Seeing the insights, walking around; and further, a merry-go-round running off my mind from time to time, that I assume is good, anyway!

You guys are willing to guide me, aren't you?
Just at times, I do not expect much...